Sometimes, amidst all the struggle, it is not half bad to slide into this truth too. With a snort and a shrug, I skip carefree on my path, at least for today, on this rainy afternoon. Carrot firmly in hand. Crunch crunch.
There is no spiritual carrot on a stick.
I have already achieved the ending,
Because I started there.
It’s not what I must do in this life,
But how I do it.
There is nothing I can do wrong
Except to be ignorant of the fact that I already have everything.
Promise myself never to fuss at my children? Critique myself? Judge another? What?
I would never do that.
Something else might do that,
But it would not be me.
It was just in my head,
Pretending to be me.
It was very loud, boasted authority
And I didn’t hear much else
So I thought it was me.
It told me to strive, to fight
It told me when I had done well
And when I had failed.
It told me I was spiritually incomplete,
But I was almost there.
It told me I was improving.
But all those improvements never happened
Because there was nothing to improve.
A false voice posing as me.
It wasn’t always there.
I must have tuned into it when I was little,
But I do remember a time without it, very very young.
There is nothing to do
Except what is right here in front of me,
Which needs to be done,
To have this experience.
I don’t have to grow
Or have visions
There isn’t even a journey.
A journey implies distance, duration, and an achievable goal or endpoint.
It’s not a journey,
It’s an awareness
And awareness comes with an experience.
Knowing the taste of strawberry ice cream
Requires the experience of eating it.
Knowing the feeling of the sand under my feet, the sun on my skin, the salty water on my face,
Requires the experience of walking on the beach, jumping into the ocean.
There is no journey in the ice cream or the beach,
Just an experience, providing an awareness.
I am not growing, I am not changing, I am experiencing.
It is more like my higher self is focusing its attention on experiencing a certain frequency of a certain density.
Am I ready for the next step?
There is no next step,
And yet, I am already there.
I will always be everything.